There are two quotes on Adversity that I peeled from the
web: the first, Nietzsche “That which does not kill me only makes me stronger.” The other is, from some dark wit “That which
does not kill me only delays the inevitable.”
As some may or may not know, I was scheduled to have had
surgery two days ago, on Monday. However, at the last minute, last Thursday,
the hospital called and said I had to be cleared by the cardiologist prior to
getting opened up.
Now, I had some pretty justifiable anger at that,
considering they had my EKG for a week, and notified me so late in the week that
there was no way to get the necessary stress tests, etc. done in time to
continue ahead with the surgery as planned. SO that was extremely frustrating.
Then when I was told the cardiologist couldn’t see me until July 3rd….I
was more than a little ticked. (Call me selfish…I would like to get this thing
out of me, and get on with my life…)
I had some justifiable anger.... |
So, imagine my pleasant surprise when the Vascular Imaging
people called Monday and told me they could squeeze me in yesterday for the
stress test. Excellent. So I got that done. Then a few hours later, I was told
the cardiologist, one Dr. Pautz (sounds like ‘pouts’) could see me today….AWESOME!
Things were moving along nicely.
I just got back from Dr. Pautz.
ME. DAMMIT. |
Adversity. Remember, adversity? (We were speaking of it a
moment back.) When this whole debacle is over I will be impervious. A FUCKING SUPERMAN. Weird feelings right now,
again. Sorry.
Lest you freak out, (not my intention), suffice to say not BAD news....but not *GOOD* news, either. More like, "What the f**k now, are you kidding me, when is this horse-shit gonna-end, really for serious, f**k, f**k, F**K." Kinda news."
For whatever it's worth, my perspective on a lot of shit has been radically yanked about the last few weeks..so for any ensuing weirdness you may experience at my hands...I apologise in advance.(GRIN)
Remember? The nephrectomy! |
Anyway, I am cleared to go ahead with the nephrectomy. At
this time it is unknown when, but I am sure they will let me know soon enough.
My love to you all.
Charlie